Letter to my pawpaw #1

Dear Papaw Ray,

I’m sorry I wasn’t born early enough to meet you, I wish I had been. I feel as if I had you in my life,
I wouldn’t have taken the wrong turns in my life the way I have. I wouldn’t be the person I am today.
 I feel as if I was cheated in life, my whole life I saw girls with their grandfathers, and I never got
to experience that love a girl feels for her papaw. I never got to be a papaw’s girl (which I know I would
have been and I would have loved!) I never got to sit on your knee on the swing on the front porch and tell
you about my day. If you were in my life, you would be the one who I asked to take my dad’s place and walk me
down the aisle on the most important day of my life. And as I sit and think about that day, its so difficult to
think you wont be there to watch me marry the love of my life. He is a great man papaw and I know you would have
loved him, because he treats me the way a man should treat a woman. You wont be there the day I have my kids, and
to help me raise them in the Lord and spoil them rotten. You have 6 beautiful grandchildren papaw, and 2 amazing
little great grandchildren. Michael is married. Bryson is 6 years old and is in the first grade, and amazes me everyday
with the things he learns. Brooklyn is 8 months old and is learning to crawl and is growing in leaps and bounds, and I see the
relationship they have with their papaw and it makes me sad daily to see how much they love him and how much he would do anything
 to make them happy and be what they need as a stability in their life. Jennifer is working at the hospital and is making great changes
in her life, for the better, and i know you would be very proud of her. I’m working on going back to school in the near future to get my
degree in child education, I’m in love with a wonderful guy who every loves and approves of, I know you would as well.
Billy is in the divorce process but its a good thing trust me you would approve. He is hoping to re-enter the military soon
and i know he can make it. Megan hopefully will make changes to better herself soon. I miss you papaw, though i never got to meet you.
 I know if you were still here we would all be different. Mamaw wouldn’t be as bitter as she is and would be alot more fun.
 I plan to write more to you as things change in my life, since I cant call you on the phone and talk to you about my life,
I’ll write you and keep you updated as things change.

i love you papaw, please watch over our family and keep us safe :)

Love, Michelle